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December 21, 2004
Happy Yule!
Yuletide Greetings and all that.
My Mac has been back home and happy for almost a week now. It was an issue with the power supply, just like I thought. Now if only they would have listened to me in the first place.
Since my family has been turning into a bunch of Springer guests, I don't know if I will be flying out to see them in two days like I had planned. I don't particularly want to waste the plane ticket (though I think I can pay $100 and use it within the year) and I really want to visit my niece, but then again, I am not looking forward to putting myself in the middle of everything for a weekend.
We'll see.
It's just so frustrating being so far away from my family, yet still being dragged into the drama that seems to either follow us or is created by us, I can't tell which.
There is a lot of suppressed hurt and anger surrounding my family because of my mother's death and we Smiths don't deal with anger well. We let is build up until it has no choice but to completely explode, resulting in some not fun scenes. Though I am far from free of all my 'issues,' I know I have grown up, especially in the last two years. Losing someone that close to you tends to put life into a completely different perspective. Some deal with the new perspective well, others not so well. I hope to think that I lean towards the former.
I've been a bit introspective lately, can you tell?
Maybe this is the 'profound' post I keep talking about.
Maybe not.
Posted by amanda at December 21, 2004 04:39 AM